Berlin seems to be a topsy-turvy teeter-totter of plentitude and sparsity. I'm sitting in a Turkisch Backeri with W-LAN around the corner from my temporary home on Schillerpromenade. My right shoulder is killing me and I don't know why. Probably a combination of bad posture and stress. I have cramps and a job interview. I'm a good actor. I'll act like I feel fabulous!
I interviewed for two different rooms yesterday. One in a Housing Project with 17 people. It was quiet and clean with not too many rules. I would definitely live there. Also, it was in Kreuzberg, a neighborhood I adore. The other was with one other person in Wedding, a neighborhood I am not crazy about. The woman was sweet, a social worker working in the anti-psychiatry sector. Here apartment was clean and with character, a romantic red rose motif. She suffered from agoraphobia and smoked in the kitchen. I have come to accept that smoking inside is just something I will have to deal with. I asked her if there was wireless internet. She said yes but that she didn't like to share her password. I tried to explain to her that just because I used her internet signal did not mean I had access to her files. She really liked me and actually, we got along well, but I will not move in there unless she trusts me enough to give me her password.
Honestly, the place I end up next doesn't really matter in the long-long-term. I have to be able to live there until June, sublet for 2.5 months, and come back to it. And then, if I want to, I can look for my dream home.
The only sure thing in my life right now is that I have improv rehearsal on Thursday nights and an improv show on Friday nights until the beginning of April. Thank god for this. Also, after a year-long hiatus from using language onstage and a 10 year hiatus from slam poetry, I have decided it is time to start rocking the Berlin poetry slam scene. Poetry slam is a relatively new genre in Germany, and there are a few English Language slams. I've been writing a lot of slam style poems lately, and I have quite a few oldies up my sleeve as well. I have decided that this will be my performance at Pizza Sonntag on Sunday. Dammit, there are enough challenges going on in my life right now. I should allow myself to do what I do well and enjoy a little success.
Get ready, Berlin, because this lady slam poet is about to take you over!
And just to be clear, even though everything is so, so hard right now, I am still glad I quit the shitty Au Pair job. And I am so, so thankful for Robert.